who are you? who am I?

sigh .. it's like I lost my "true" self..
I don't even know who I am, I used to love Japan. And all my close friends even my parents knew it.
however, I don't understand why I lose my own passion to prove that I could go there.. I lost interest to anime, manga, even japanese culture.. it's impossible for me, right? it was my dream since I was third grade in elementary school. how can I let it go that easily?

entahlah, sepertinya I wanna hide this side of me , punya mimpi itu gak mudah, gak mudah diterima orang lain, sungguh. I know we have to be our self, but what if they don't accept us? who knows..
jangan salah paham, aku tidak berpura-pura jadi orang lain kok.. aku hanya sedikit kehilangan aku yang dulu..